A Face in the Darkness

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Legs blocked the walkway of the bottom bleacher. The vacant dark corner across the gymnasium beckoned Allie to come hither and hide in the shadows it provided. No one knew her; she had remained as faceless now as she had on the first day at this school. Coming to this dance was a mistake. Who was she kidding that she would be able to fit in at this school?

No matter what alias she used something always happened to make life miserable for her no matter where they moved. Why couldn’t she be like the rest of them?

What would it be like to be just a human?

The empty corner was not empty after all. Golden yellow eyes of one of the boys from her science class met hers. Had he been waiting for her here all along?

His name – Luke, Larry, Lonny, she faked knowing him as awkward as being near him seemed to be, “Hiya, great dance.”

“Hi to you, it’s just a school dance like any other. You’re Allie, right?” He allowed her a bit of the corner with the shadow blocking the view of the dance floor. “Are you here alone?”

Allie looked beside her to see if anyone was standing next to her. Nope, no one there. “that is a pretty good guess.”

He shifted his weight off the wall. “I don’t normally like to dance, but I like this song. Would you like to dance?” His hand extended in the offer.

Refuse? Any other time Allie would refuse, but his smile enticed her. “This is awful for me to admit, I never caught your name.” Her fingers touched his in reluctant acceptance. “Is it Luke?”

His smile grew. “Yes, I’m Luke.”

The moment he put his hand on her waist and held her hand she knew more about him besides his name. He was just like her. The first one she had ever met. No longer did she feel so alone in a world of humans. Allie didn’t have to be faceless forever. Maybe now she would be able to leave her Aliases in the past.

Copyright © 2017 by Linda Nelson

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Needing to Want – Finding Motivation

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It doesn’t matter what you’re trying to do, but if you want it bad enough, you’ll find a way to acquire it. A drug addict will always find a way to get that next fix. An alcoholic will find a way to get that next drink. Same goes for the smoker. I know, I quit smoking ten years ago cold turkey. I did this by eliminating one cigarette a day each week until I was down to one a day. That was when I wondered why I was even bothering to light one up.
I think there has to be a need to have a want. You can want something, but that doesn’t always guarantee that you’re going to get it. But if the need is stronger than the want, it acts like magic. – Maybe it is Magic!
Same goes for writing. There’s writer’s block, I do know that, but then there’s the other writer’s block from lack of motivation. I think the lack of motivation is a form of lack of confidence. When we write every day and put our words out for others to read, that’s how our confidence begins to build. It’s one of the main reasons why I believe all writers should blog at least once a week.

English: Unconscious Motivation
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You say you’re on Social Media. That’s fine, but are you afraid of your writing being read by millions of people? The thought of this does make me a bit squeamish at times. You’re center stage and the spotlight is on you when someone not only buys your book but reads it. This is when your left wondering, did they like it?
Blogging can help overcome this feeling and build your confidence. You won’t get a lot of readers right off the bat. I think this can be a bonus. A blog can be your playground. You can use it to try new ways of writing. Play with writing prompts and see where they take you. Use it for a writing journal and make friends in the process.
It’s not always about trying to attract new readers. They will appear as your skill with writing grows stronger. You’ll lose your awkwardness with words and become less – let’s say – shy – would be the word.
I’m one of those quiet types. I try to listen to those around me and learn. As I get to know a person better, I become more comfortable with them and begin to interact more.
Writing is the same too. The more you are comfortable doing what you’re doing, the more likely you will do it every day.
I’ve been blogging much more since I moved my site. I feel the need since I am paying for this service; I’d better be using it. At work, I’ve found myself interacting with my co-workers more too. So the confidence level is growing not only in my writing but also in my ability to communicate with other individuals.

The point is, I wanted to write more and found a way to motivate myself to do so. I may not be working on my work in progress at this time, but I am writing, none the less. My goal by the end of the month is to be writing a post every day. Maybe my next post will lead me to a brainstorming session or an ah-ha moment, and I’ll come up with the next event of my story. I do have a lot of plot holes to get rid of, it’s going to need a lot of work. For now, I’ll use my post to keep me motivated and fuel my need to write because I want to finish this manuscript.